Lost

I call for you
Pleading into the darkness
Imagining your form
Moving through the shadows
I stand outside
Chilled to the bone
Not by the icy wind
But by thoughts of
Never again
Seeing you
Holding you
Feeling your silky touch
So I call again and again
Screaming your name into the night
But the only answer
Is from the bitter autumn wind
Maniacally laughing at me
Swirling bright dead leaves around me
Mocking me with their death
As it whips my hair into my eyes
I peer into the emptiness
Hoping against hope
That you are still alive
And will come home tonight
To purr beside my pillow.