Recently I considered starting a blog under some sort of pseudonym, just so I could be brutally honest about all the things that I am actually too polite to say (or blog) publicly. Because, believe-it-or-not, there are a great many things I actually hold back on.
But, I prayed about it, and realized that if I have reservations about communicating something, that’s probably a really good sign that I don’t need to. Stating my mind has never been difficult for me. Those of you who know me well can vouch for this, but please, don’t! 😉
So, instead of secretly blogging about a bunch of things I really don’t even need to be thinking about, I have decided to just focus more on blogging about the things that really matter to me, and not worrying about running off all eight of my regular readers.
For example: I am Catholic. On purpose. I left the Catholic Church for roughly 12 years because of things I blindly believed that were told to me by well-meaning, but very wrong, non-Catholics. However, in my time out of the church, I learned that many, many Protestants have very strong anti-Catholic sentiments, and so I tend to try to not gush on-and-on about ‘Catholic Stuff’, lest I freak out my Protestant friends, whom I love dearly.
But, I’m not going to be shy about being Catholic anymore. I love being Catholic! I go to Mass almost every day, and have a goal of actually making it every single day. I have recently started attending weekly Adoration. I try to say my Rosary every single night. I have little Holy Water Fonts in my house. I love my framed picture of Our Lady Of Czestochowa (Ches-toe-HOE-vuh), the Patroness of Poland, almost as much as I love the pictures of my own grandmothers! I am even very seriously considering wearing a Mantilla to Mass. (gasp!) I ask various Saints to pray for me, same as I might ask any living friend or family member to pray for me. I abstain from eating meat on Fridays. And so on.
So. There you have it. I am very saddened by all the folks who don’t understand my religion, and believe the lies they have heard about it. I am sorrier still for Catholics who misrepresent our Faith and tarnish it. I try very hard not to be one of them. For now, let me just assure any of you who may have doubts, I am, by Protestant definition, “Saved”. I welcome the chance to clear up any confusion about Catholicism if anyone is sincerely interested. I am not interested in converting everyone to the Catholic Church, so you don’t need to worry about that.
And, in retrospect, I suppose that is part of the reason why my blog has seemed to be, at least in my opinion, ‘all over the map’. I have been soft-pedaling the biggest and most important part of my life: my Faith! Being Catholic is such an integral part of our lives that it has become difficult to give updates and opinions without discussing that aspect in some way. So, I hope to be quite a bit more focused now, and am looking forward to sharing in much greater detail the little things that happen daily in our very Catholic home.